i feel like there’s a lot to say to my best friend right now. i mean, i don’t think he knows that he is actually my best friend. there’s not enough obnoxiousness to make him decide he doesn’t want to listen. he’s there. and i just want to be there for someone. i want to be there for him. what is my life nowadays? backing in my semi-failures. which, don’t get me wrong, have an overall purpose. but still, i feel like i’m in between. and that’s the worst place to be. because i have all this uncertainty. i feel like i haven’t given myself completely to one single aspect, and therefore, i have failed at everything and really, accomplished nothing at all.
ahhh im losing my train of thought. i wish i had a computer at hand at all times so i could just let it all out. but i feel like it happens in the moment, and i live it, and then i lose it. its all a blur.
